The Ashes we Breathe Suffocate Our Souls

myhateofallpop @ 2005-12-26T18:59:00

2005-12-26T09:00:17Z

so is everyone else as bored as I am? I sit at home too much. its too freakin hot, and there is nothin to do. -end rant here-

myhateofallpop @ 2005-12-13T13:37:00

2005-12-13T03:39:52Z

its been a while. all i can say is that im sick of shit. you can try help all you like but im afraid thats just the way i am. Im fucked. you should just stay away from me.

myhateofallpop @ 2005-05-26T21:27:00

2005-05-26T11:31:02Z

Errrrrrrrr OK!
Erm, my birthday is tomorro (friday) and im goin up the coast to mum and dad's, which will be aight cos mums makin a roast... fuck yea! Then on Saturday Im most likely going to the show at the lions den, and afterwards im inviting everyone! this means you.. hehe! to pancakes in the city on Charlotte St. Probably at about 4:30. then I'll be at the mustang bar in the valley at 6:30 for $5 jugs, and then wherever the night takes me. Hope you can come along and get drunk... haha.

myhateofallpop @ 2005-03-13T11:53:00

2005-03-13T01:57:38Z

Well, I don't often update my journal cos im lazy, but now that I have some time to myself and am at home, I figure I should. So lately I've been in a bit of a drought of monies, and so haven't been going out at all. But NOW! I am working a few shifts at Citybeach again so I should be getting back on my feet soon. If you want to do something give me a call cos I am keen as shit... I just want to do something instead of sitting around at home watching foxtel. Shows shows shows. erm, I haven't been to any shows lately either and i will hopefully be going to Prom Queen on wednesday if I can be bothered getting out of the house. Erm......... Yeah. Funny chest pains suck ass. Meeting new friends and seeing old ones rocks! Saw Candice last nite at the D-pot, havents seen her in ages and it was good to catch up. Well, Im gunna be off so I don't continue rambling useless nothings.....

The End

myhateofallpop @ 2005-01-05T20:55:00

2005-01-05T10:55:35Z

ok, so we're not getting kicked out anymore, which is a good thing. i still feel orsum, and ill be here for another 6 months! yieeeeew!

Things change I guess

2005-01-05T04:22:54Z

Well, its a new year and for me a new start. We're getting kicked out of our house on Sunday which sucks ass, and for some reason i don't feel like shit. I guess I should feel like shit cos I will have no place to live, but for some reason i feel great, like a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders.

So much has happened in the last year and i feel like i have let myself down. Uni didn't work out like I had planned, and either did working with my friends dad. There was so much shit that was tying me down and I didn't know how to cope. Sorry if I've dissappointed anyone in any way during the last year, cos I know I can be a fuckhead sometimes.

To the friends I made last year, thanks for being there for me, cos its been a hell of a year. Im not too good at writing so I'll try to keep goping as best I can, heh. So yeah, this year im going to try and make a new start. forget about all the shit that was on my mind and just concentrate on having fun and living my life. I'll try to be more outgoing and do more to help me be me.

Thanks to all who have helped me out in the past year, and thanks especially to Laila, who has been there for me through all the shit that has gone on this past year, I don't know how I could have gone on without you.

Anyways, I hope you all have a great new year. Be yourself and don't forget to have fun.

myhateofallpop @ 2004-11-29T21:03:00

2004-11-29T13:12:12Z

god, i just realised how bored im going to be now... i've left roast and toast and will be werkin at citybeach, surf-rattin it up. means less hours and no more uni for a while so if anyone gets bored call me and we can do something, cos jeebus, i can't play the sims forever...

Its funny ya kno

2004-11-25T08:26:29Z

Heh, isn't it great how things just pass you by? Its amazing how people say that you only know how much you loved someone till they are gone. Cos its true. I can't bring myself to think of the thousands of kilometers that we are apart now, even if it is only for three months. I miss her. I wish I could get on the phone and talk with her but I know theres no way that'll happen... Unless there are phones in the forests. But I guess three months will go by quickly and then she'll be back. And I'll know then what I know now..... god this sounds lame, but oh well, i dun care. I miss you. Come back lady.

Updating seesh

2004-11-17T08:20:46Z

So! Thats a crack ho! Yeah, i have been watching Sopranos and Band Of Brothers alot lately. M M M MEEEEDIIIIIIC! and i have come to the conclusion that the sooner I have foxtel, the better off i will be..... so it is being installed on monday. Erm, some shit has gone down. Uni is over for a year for me, deferred last week, now I just have to get around to doing my assignments so I dun fail my first year of uni cos that would be pretty farked up right there. Dresden Dolls are coming and much fun will be had. Rellies coming up for Chrissy will be not so much fun, We're having a New Years Party at ours.... on New Years. So come.... it shall be great... Errrrrrrr, went out on the weeeeeeeekend and got myself drunk and had fun with peeps at the D-pot. Everything is garn ok now. Got an interview at Citybeach on Saturday, so I'll have to get someone to do my shift at work for me. god damn. anyways, if i get the job, then I won't have to freaking carve into dead animal all day and then come home smelling like dead animal. If you don't know i work in a carvery... not a whore house... hah! ok, that was a bad joke so now im gunna go. Bye.

Updating seesh

2004-11-17T08:19:00Z

So! Thats a crack ho! Yeah, i have been watching Sopranos and Band Of Brothers alot lately. M M M MEEEEDIIIIIIC! and i have come to the conclusion that the sooner I have foxtel, the better off i will be..... so it is being installed on monday. Erm, some shit has gone down. Uni is over for a year for me, deferred last week, now I just have to get around to doing my assignments so I dun fail myu first year of uni cos that would be pretty farked up right there. Dresden Dolls are coming and much fun will be had. Rellies coming up for Chrissy will be not so much fun, We're having a New Years Party at ours.... on New Years. So come.... it shall be great... Errrrrrrr, went out on the weeeeeeeekend and got myself drunk and had fun with peeps at the D-pot. Everything is garn ok now. Got an interview at Cotybeach on Saturday, so I'll have to get someone to do my shift at work for me. god damn. anyways, if i get the job, then I won't have to freaking carve into dead animal all day and then come home smelling like dead animal. If you don't know i work in a carvery... not a whore house... hah! ok, that was a bad joke so now im gunna go. Bye.

myhateofallpop @ 2004-10-24T03:50:00

2004-10-23T17:52:43Z

Tongiht was... not even worth explaining. I just wish that Laila's 22nd Birthday could have gone a little more smoothly. What happened to fun? WHat happened to the drunkenness frenzy? What happened to just going out and enjoying the time you spend wit your friends? Why did you walk by me as if you didn't know me... not even worth writing about anymore. Maybe I should just stay home in the future.

myhateofallpop @ 2004-10-08T15:47:00

2004-10-08T06:02:48Z

Sometimes I feel like it's all worth nothing. Right now I feel like I'm being suffocated by all this shit and im helpless to stop it. I hate what I've become, what I am. I hate uni, I just want to stop but if I do I'm too scared that I'll have no future. I want to quit work, but I'm scared and I'm not strong enough to do it. I have problems with confrontation and am way too shy. I have confidence issues. I have low self esteem. There is always someone there for me, but they're always telling me what to do, saying I can't do what I want to do, and just making me feel worse. I can't talk about my problems with those that are closest to me cos I have no idea how. I can't voice my opinions either. I just want to have fun and it sucks that there are so many factors that affect my life when I just want to do what I want to do. I want to cry. I want to scream. There are so many people that know what they want to do but I don't and I'm not happy with that. Why is it so hard to find something that I like? That I can do for a job? I guess when I was brought up I didn't do enough for myself and now I'm stuck. Who knows if I will ever get out of the shit that I constantly find myself in. I care what other people think of me, and sometimes that can be a bad thing. One sentence can hurl me into a depression. This is fucked. That was my ramble. No more. Now I'm gunna go and do nothing for a while. Watch TV and try not to think about everything else.

myhateofallpop @ 2004-10-03T15:21:00

2004-10-03T05:39:19Z

ok, so more piiiiiiiictures that I have now :P from friday nitght - Rot the Rythm... I had an awesome time and I hope all those that went did too. So here they are....

Coup De Grace - Farken awesome set! Hope to see em again real soon...

Ryan rocking out! You go boy!

Simon and Ash layin down the beats.

Ash singin his heart out.

Benny rocking out with tha ska beats of doom!

Hullo ladies! Jade and Yas, the hottest punk bitches around!

Steve! He's so hot right now!

Well then.... when I said hot bitvhes, now you know I wasn't lying! wooooooot!

Ok, so much fun was had on friday night, but then I had a great time last night in the Vals too. The night started out with me on a bus on my way to the city, then I made my way into the valley via train. I cruised past RG's and thought I heard my name being called out but couldn't see anyone around so kept on walkin to tha mustang. After realising no-one was there either, I bought myself a $5 jug and stod at the bar, hoping someone would come and save me from my boredom... And well, let me tell you... I WAS SAVED! About 30 minutes after I found myself in tha mustang at the bar, a group of 8 or so ladies walked in wearing police outfits... costumes they were, not real ones... After some minor chats with the ladies I found out theat they were having a hens night, and were happy to accept me into their celebrations, depending on whether anyone I knew turned up or not. So I was talking with them for a while, and we finally said our goodbyes. I walked towards RG's to see Fleur, Jud and a 16 yr old guy drinking and so I joined in the underage lyingfest and bought myself a schooner.. So moments passed and we made our way to the depot. A little sweet-talking to Jim and Carly helped us manage our way in for free! yay for us! Thanks to them :P SO yah, went in and found sooo many people I knew, and I saw slutty again and gave her back her farken sticker... I mean,. who wants a blink sticker from a slut anyways? Then Von, Sarah and Louisa showed up and chatted, then louisa and Sarah left, but then Em, Carlyshmoo and Michelle turned up./ A night of much excitement was had and home tiome was at about 4ish i think.. not sure tho... so anyways, that was my rable and I had heaps of fun and thanks to everyone for making ythis weekend the best EVER! Especially thanks to Manda cos we make the best team and I couldn't have done the show without you.
Love. xo.

myhateofallpop @ 2004-09-26T14:09:00

2004-09-26T04:15:16Z

So yah, went to the punk night at the Jube and had a farken awesome time. Ran into some old friends and just had a good night i guess. anyways, gots some pics for yis cunts!

Alex being his usual wigga self...

Julie sings the blues.

Hey, I know you!

Oscar and Kram revisit the old boy band days...

Ok, so they're either really drunk, or Neil is in labor and Alex is the loving husband... hahahahaha

Hey, look up in tha sky!

Heyyyyyyyy...... its those guys.... doing that stuff they do... yeah.

Awwwwwwwww, he's just niiiiiiiiiiiiiice. So yeh... noice one ali, actually took your camera out.

YoHoHo 'N A Shipload 'O Grog!

2004-09-19T05:05:23Z

Sooooooooo, I believe I have been awarded that best pirate costume... it was fun dressing up for Crustal and I had sooooo much fun on the boatcruise. The only thing I have to watch is how much I drink and how much money I spend. I spent way too much andim garn to have to not drink this week... although I do have about 15 beers in the fridge :P

Yah, so anyways, I got realyy drunk... The boatcruise was heaps of fun, and I am sure everyone enjoyed it. I am so glad for Crust that everything worked out perfectly. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaalways.... And then the show at the Nash was fun too. Lots of people there and lots of beer was bought and drunk.

Then the D-Pot aye? Yah, it was fun... I got way too drunk at this place and I am not garn to go into the details of my drunkenness. I got home eventually and crashed.... when I woke up it was 2:37........... so yah. Stuff is fun.

Stolen ideas...

2004-09-16T13:22:21Z

Bold what you've seen all the way through; italicize what you've seen part of; underline what you own; then add three of your own

01. Trainspotting
02. Shrek
03. M
04. Dogma
05. Strictly Ballroom
06. The Princess Bride
07. Love Actually
08. The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Rings
09. The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
10. The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
11. Reservoir Dogs
12. Desperado
13. Swordfish
14. Kill Bill Vol. 1
15. Donnie Darko
16. Spirited Away
17. Better Than Sex
18. Sleepy Hollow
19. Pirates of the Caribbean
20. The Eye
21. Requiem for a Dream
22. Dawn of the Dead - Well I own the original, seen both versions
23. The Pillow Book
24. The Italian Job
25. Goonies
26. Baseketball
27. The Spice Girls Movie
28. Army of Darkness
29. The Color Purple
30. The Safety of Objects
31. Can't Hardly Wait
32. Mystic Pizza
33. Finding Nemo
34. Monsters Inc.
35. Circle of Friends
36. Mary Poppins
37. The Bourne Identity
38. Forrest Gump
39. A Clockwork Orange
40. Kindergarten Cop
41. On The Line
42. My Big Fat Greek Wedding
43. Final Destination
44. Sorority Boys
45. Urban Legend
46. Cheaper by the Dozen
47. Fierce Creatures
48. Dude, Where's My Car
49. Ladyhawke
50. Ghostbusters
51. Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
52. Back to the Future
53. An Affair To Remember
54. Somewhere In Time
55. North By Northwest
56. Moulin Rouge
57. Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
58. The Wizard of Oz
59. Zoolander
60. A Walk to Remember
61. Chicago
62. Vanilla Sky
63. The Sweetest Thing
64. Don't Tell Mom the Babysitters Dead
65. The Nightmare Before Christmas
66. Chasing Amy
67. Edward Scissorhands
68. Adventures of Priscilla: Queen of the Desert
69. Muriel's Wedding
70. Croupier
71. Blade Runner
72. Cruel Intentions
73. Ocean's Eleven THE ORIGINAL
74. Magnolia
75. Fight Club
76. The Beauty and The Beast
77. Much Ado About Nothing
78. Dirty Dancing
79. Gladiator
80. Ever After
81. Braveheart
82. What Lies Beneath
83. Regarding Henry
84. The Dark Crystal
85. Starwars
86. The Birds
87. Beaches
88. Cujo
89. Maid In Manhatten
90. Labyrinth
91. Thoroughly Modern MillieT
92. His Girl Friday
93. Chocolat
94. Independence Day
95. Singing in the Rain
96. Big Fish
97. The Thomas Crown Affair THE ORIGINAL
98. The Matrix
99. Stargate
100. A Hard Day's Night
101. About A Boy
102. Jurrasic Park
103. Life of Brian
104. Dune
105. The Jerk
106. Gone With the Wind
107. Rear View Window (Do they mean Rear Window??? Hitchcock? then yes seen it
108. The Virgin Suicides
109. Death Of A Cheerleader
110. Half Baked
111. Mean Girls
112. Dodgeball
113. 13 Going on 30 (Suddenly 30 to those of us in Australia)
114. Stand and Deliver
115. Detroit Rock City
116. Serial Mom
117. Amelie
118. Irreversible
119. Mulholland Drive
120. Kill Bill Volume 2
121. Gone in 60 Seonds
122. Old Yeller
123. Bottle Rocket
124. Taxi Driver
125. The Big Lebowski
126. The Royal Tenenbaums
127. Reality Bites
128. Great Expectations
129. The City of Lost Children
130. The Ladies Man
131. Lost In La Mancha
132. Citizen Kane
133. Cry Baby
134. Space balls

Soooooooo, you like stuff?

2004-09-06T06:50:27Z

Yeah, so... Went out on tha weekend, it was nice :P Went to the d-pot and saw Schtan and Jaz and went with Crust and Carly and met some punky kids. It was alright I guess. Thanks for the people that talked to me for the most part of the night when I was left alone. It seems that I must be really boring or something. Every time someone was talking to me about 15 minutes later they would leave... Eventually eveyone left and I was sitting in the d-pot by myself. But then I went downstairs and Crust was down there and I met Rach. Yah, thanks to Jaz for dancing eh? Made my night at least interesting. Went to mum and dad's on Sunday. Trains fucking suck the ass that a certain old-housemate was born from. We waited for way too fucking long at Strathpine cos of Fucking signalling problems. Mum and Dad's was good. Foxtel is good, and so is ISDN. Yah, back home and uni today. was fine, Saraid drove me home and she sat reading a dream-book. FUNNO! and Amanda I hope ur ok, you seemed quiet today. I'l seee you on Wednesday night at Mary Street for Against Me! and Conation. Yah, so... stuff is ok i guess. Ima garn ta go now eh. bye.

myhateofallpop @ 2004-08-31T15:13:00

2004-08-31T05:32:42Z

Hmmmm, I am getting sick of writing and shit. Hopefully putting a show on soon, it'lll be fun!

...

2004-08-23T07:40:30Z

Yah, been a while sincwe I've posted.. as usual. Some of the peeps from TCE (Adel.) are staying at ours. Its fun, people to talk to when usualy its just me and the tv... IOurphone is back on too, so I can call peeps and stuff, whic is good I spose, but then again, it means we're getting bills again :( Hmmmmmm..... Stuff happens and shit, Don't let it get to yah! Boatcruise on Sat was fun... Just the right amount of peeps so that you could sit down and talk. Upstairs and downstairs was good too, you could get away from the loudness of the music :P The new depot is alright. Not the greatest, and has a bit of a pop feel to it, but its still ok. Had fun dancing, till my dancing partner ditched me fror an unnamed someone whose name I will not mention. Yah... Stuff is good at the moment, having fun, and having no money. But strill, I'm surviving, drunkenly but well.................. Dots are fun......... Yeah, I'm trying to think of something to write. God now owes me a beer and a lemon-lime and bitters with vodka. I don't know what he owes cruspy, now, but it is def. at least one beer, which was knocked over by none other than myself, all because of the clumsyness that was built into me... Thanks alot fucker! Yah, so like, can't wait till september, lotrs of fun stuff happening, Conation and Against Me, Crust's boatcruise, hopefuly garn to sydnee too! anyways, bye fuckers!

Oi yis cunts!

2004-08-15T11:24:48Z

SO yeah. Went to mum and dad's this weekend to save some money and see them. Got a new CD/mp3 player! yay for me! Still have nothing much to report, but I'm going to go and learn swing dancing on wednesday night. It'll be funno! So yeah, yis should come and learn with me... Its $10 per session, but you can pay in a block and it works out as $8... If you wanna know more then email me or call me or somethin eh? Yeah.... nothing to report on still.......... Except I now can't stand the whole take over in the hardcore scene where people are just dressing up to look cool, when they are just really materialistic and stuff. Although it is kind of hard not to be sometimes, I think it should really be about the music. I have heard people say that they've been to mezza and people have looked at them as if to say "What the fuck are you doing here" just cos of what they are wearing, and that is fucked up. The scene shouldn't be controlled by what you wear or what you look like... but yeah, I'm gunna stop preaching cos I am an ass and I will probably end up wearing something "hardcore" on wednesday night anyways.... Thats fucked up. I'm going now... Fuck yis all! hehe, not really, you kno I luv ya!

Hmmmmm

2004-08-10T02:37:11Z

Ok, dunno what I'm garn to write about so I'll just ramble shit... Went to the ekka and it was fun. But got sick and sickness is not fun. Kaity is really sick and I hope she gets better soon. Amanda made me dinner last night... mmmm, burritos! Thanks, it was loverly... apart from the whole excess of oil thingy

Hmmmm, so yeah... I like stuff.. I hope you like stuff too cos otherwise you can fuck off! I know lots of people that like stuff and they rock the cock. Just like Bewilderbomb. Steve is great, so is Kram and Oscar and Ben and Head :P Oh, I think we are having a bbq tomozza, cos its the show holiday and all, so if you want just turn up at about 1 or 2 and err, It'll be funno... But then again we haven't really organised it or anything so it might be a big letdown. as long as you turn up with a plate full of food we will let you in, otherwise we WILL make you go to the shop and get stuff... just cos we love you and if you don't love us then you can shove off and find another bbq. hahaha, only kidding, but it would help if you did bring food. COs I am broke... and I need to LIVE!!!!! I wuv you... And I'm Charles foster cane, I'll giv eyou anything you want, but you GOTTA LOVE ME FIRST!

ANyways, rambling shit is getting boring... might go and checkout Myspace... Bye for now...

oi ya cunt!

2004-08-02T02:50:29Z

weekends are fun...

hooking up is fun...

Crispy is the bomb! happy birthday for tomozza biatche!

Jizz is funny.... (you know who you are Jizzy)

Viagra is the best! (The drink, not the pill)

$3 dakaries are awesome...

A bit of a change of pace from my normal routine.... deal with it fuckers! who says you can know everything that happened! hahahahahahaha Akhmals everywhere!

ASL PLZ!

Weekends oh weekends.....

2004-07-27T02:03:01Z

So I guess I should update and tell you all of the strange and disconcerting happenings of the weekend...... Friday Night. Went out at about 11:30 after Carly and Crust took about 2 hours to get ready :P Went to RGs and then headed over to the Depot to look in the window. After finding no-one interesting and deciding not to spend $6 to get in, we went for a random pub: Gilhooleys...... Hahahahahaha, Carly and Crust were playing a game to see who would, well.... Actually I don't know what the point of it was but it involved them eyeing people and seeing what would happen i think. Then Elmyra and Siobhan showed up and the fun really started. Carly eyed a 40 year old man, and when he ignored her, Elmyra made sure she got his attention. After many beers on his behalf, we (THe 3 troopers Elmyra, Carly and Myself) were invited to a 5some in his appartment with his ho-wife! She was really skanky and it wasn't until she put the mask on that we laughed our asses off. Jesus... Did that really happen? So then we went and looked in the depot again to see if anyone was there.... Then Jim told us it was Free! Thanks Jimmy! SO we went in and sat... then left and went to the empire and saw Casey and some guys that everyone else but I knew... So then we went home and got there at 4:30. Just enough time for a 2 hour sleep before my 8-5 shift, which went ok, seeing as though I slept all day friday :P

So now... Saturday Night. We went to the Dutton Park Party for a while and some ass drank 2 or 4 of our beers and took off. Bastard! So we finished our alcohol and Elmyra drove us into the Valley. I think we looked in the depot windows and then went to RGs but I can't quite remember... SO I will tell the story how it possibly happened. Yah, so we went to RGs and had a few beers, then Elmyra came with Carly and Kram.... OOOOOOOOOOOO...... haha. Ummmmm, Then some little whore tried to take my hat from me and Lani nearly knocked her out. hehe. Thanks Lani, you rock! but I got it back before and mischief could be caused with the silly slut. Drinks were drunk and I found myself at the Depot sitting next to Elmyra screaming fudgepacker and muffdiver out the window at passers-by. My, god, it is so funny how well Elmyra and I get along. We just go off! So yeah. We got home at about 6, after we met a crazy pole-fucker in the taxi line who reckons he could fuck 7 poles in one night...... ok, enough said..

Hmmm, I sometimes think that maybe I write too much, but I reckon you all love it. I see others livejournals and all they say is Saturday night was great. Much fun had....... Is it that I talk too much or that I just have so many memorable moments that are livejournal worthy, and that are missing in everyone else's saturday nights........ hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Big night shmig night...

2004-07-19T02:54:55Z

Ok, so saturday wasn't the big one to end all big ones. pity, but oh well, It'll come along one day :P Next weekend is drinking games hopefully. Millies Birthday is on Friday night at east brissy bowls club, $10 entry. Then hmmmmmmm, EVERYONE MUST COME TO THE MUSTANG BAR ON SATURDAY NIGHT! $5 TOOHEYS NEW JUGS FROM 6 TILL 11! ok, i think we have found a new local! wooooooooooo! so anyways, Crust made us dinner last night. It was good. Thankyou Miss Crust! And then lots of people came and went. Laura came over during the day and that was much fun :P watched anime and did nothing..... The bit at the bus stop was funny. It was like we were in primary school... she kept on looking at me waiting for something and when she left I was laughing over the situation..... Not that I was laughing at her, just that I am so shy :P Highlight of the week? Well it would be somewhere between watching the ken park "can I eat you out?
" scene and hearing the chick say "keep licking" and "what are you doing? put your head back down?" hahahahahahahaha, and then theres "my big fat greek vagina" hahahahahaha, and hmmmmmm, I like stuff :P Byeeeeeeeeeeeee!

The Vagina Movies!

2004-07-13T00:48:13Z

Right, so theres a new game for everyone to try. What you have to do is think of a movie name and replace 1 word with vagina..... You better all reply with your best every time you think of one. This isn't our idea but it is the funniest shit ever. So, mine is:

He died with a Felafel in his Vagina......

So reply now with your best muthafuckas!
Muahahahahahahahaha